Cravings

My issue lately has been cravings. I had a dream last night that I was on an adventure. I was searching high and low and was driven by a deep passion. I finally found what I was looking for. I looked around to make sure no one could see me...and I took one, because one is all I wanted. I took one, large....






Wait for it....













Potato chip.

And as I crunched into it, my husband walked in and I acted like I wasn't eating anything because I wasn't going to count it in my calories.

How depressing is that? Maybe it is a sign that I need to chill out. Or maybe it is just part of breaking the habit and changing to healthier foods.

Today I had a craving for macaroni and cheese (which I never really eat). It was after dinner and I had 200 calories left over. I wanted a single serving of creamy, cheesy, cheese and macaroni. I searched all over pinterest and narrowed it down, until I saw that a little serving was 370 calories. I instead settled for a couple of cinnamon graham crackers and began writing this post to distract me from further cravings.

Sometimes I am amazed that I have made any progress at all. I haven't been able to exercise since that 3.4 miler last week because I got sick. I also have indulged on a scoop of ice cream one day and white bread another day. So when I stepped on the scale this morning, I was SURE the number would be back to where I started originally. So I was surprised when I found out I was still on track and the scale was showing I have lost a total of 7 pounds! I stepped on the scale a couple times because I thought it may have been lying to me because it felt sorry for me. Even if it is lying, it means I am about halfway to my goal! It has been a steady process and fraught with temptations and difficulties...but I think I am overall making better choices.  I just need to exercise more and be motivated in that area.

Speaking of which, Saturday is my Color Vibe run in Bellevue! I am going to do a short, easy run tomorrow so my "legs remember what to do", as a running coach told me. If you are awake at 9am on Saturday, say a quick prayer for me! Thank you in advance and I will of course have pictures!